Pop Life
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Damn man, it's been 3 months. A little update:
First I'll cover Joseph and move on. I finally told him I didn't want to chat to him anymore. We had not chatted in a while and I finally decided that. He IMd me out of the blue one day and after a brief chat, I told him I thought it would be better if we didn't chat anymore because I want real friends, not online buddies. He apologized for not being a better friend.
Now time to update on the men. Let's see, the recent ones. Well there was Clint. Hot, lived around the corner. But I was only a back up bang to him. I discovered that when I emailed him about together a second time. He said he was up for it but was going out of town the following week (kind of odd response since I didn't ask to get together next week) so maybe after that. Then a couple of nights later I see him on manhunt looking for action. And he was still in LA. I emailed him on there and wrote "Looking for some action before heading out of town huh?" He wrote back "Guilty." He seemed to think it was amusing. I just wrote back "I'm off to bed, see ya." He has not emailed me again, no big surprise, and I have not emailed him either. I don't want to be a back up bang.
Moving on to Stephen. Stephen was a guy from Craig's List. He responded to my ad. He looked good the first time I went over. A bit toothy. Didn't really plan to go see him again. Because he was older and just now pursuing his dream of an acting career. No agent, no SAG. No thanks. But he kept in touch. And I finally went over and saw him again. I guess he was my back up bang. Not as attracted to him. It was nice but not that into him. Also, he had this odd bloating that made me wonder if he was Poz. In the moment, I figured he wasn't because my ad had said I was looking for disease free guys. and didn't he respond that he was disease free? When I got home, I checked all the old emails and no mention of being disease free. Great! I ran into him at Whole Foods the other day. I saw him first and then turned a corner so he wouldn't see me. Then I saw him outside, I gave him a quick wave that I'm not sure he saw and continued on my way. Have not heard from him since. He realized I was avoiding him at the supermarket because he was emailing me very regularly to get together again before the second time.
I went to get tested for HIV. I was a little freaked because I blew him some and I had a little canker sore in my mouth at the time. Test came back negative. Would have been unlikely but I'm paranoid.
Moving on to Charles. Oh wait, I posted an ad on Craig's List yesterday and got one response. ONE! I guess it was too wordy and tryig to be clever. Maybe it came off as too picky and demanding, not the specifics of what kind of guy I was looking for but the other stuff. Also, I didn't post any pictures.
Anyway, I responded to Charles' ad on Craig's List. He responded 90 minutes later or something like that. He just wrote "Weird, I only just got your email." I figured "Bullshit," but was more interested in whether I was attracted to him. He looked cute. So, I went over. It was nice, we went for two rounds. He didn't want any reciprocation. Nice arms but a gut on him and back hair. He swallowed. I don't think I will see him again. His bathroom was dirty, he probably lied and had probably blown someone else just before me (back up bang once again!) plus not into reciprocation. He told me he wanted to see me again. Possibly have me fuck him next time. I felt bad about this encounter afterwards, that I didn't think much about being a back up bang. Also, disappointed because I want more than just casual sex. Don't feel so bad now that I have written it all out. But I do want a relationship.
